A Life in Progress
A Testimony from the Colony of Mercy
Meet Aaron K.
I had a normal upbringing and spend Sunday mornings in church, but never knew what a relationship with Christ was all about. I accepted Christ when I was 12, but as I got older I became more focused on worldly things and put myself on the performance track. I never felt like I fit in with others around me and had to perform well in everything I did in order to feel “OK” in my own skin. AS I got involved in drugs and alcohol, God was pushed out of my life and I forgot about Him completely. My addictions continued to get worse and the more I failed in life, the more guilt I had to stuff away with drugs. At the age of 23, in the midst of my full-blown addiction, I had a child with a girl with whom I had a very tumultuous relationship spanning five years. At the time, I thought my son being born would change my life and help me to stop my addictive behaviors, but even the love I had for him was not enough to overcome my addiction.
Over the past 15 years, I have tried many different rehabs in New York and New Jersey, but none of them ever taught me how to live without my addiction for more than a couple of months. All I ever learned about was changing my behavior, which is doable for a short period of time, but I was always left with a big hole in my life with nothing to fill it besides drugs.
Since coming to the Colony of Mercy, I have been shown that I was suffering from life-dominating sin and that the only way to change is through a relationship with Jesus Christ and allowing Him to live through me. As 2 Corinthians 5:17 says, “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
It’s no longer just about living without my addiction. Rather, it’s a whole new abundant way of life as a new creation, a child of God. The forgiveness I have finally accepted from God for the things from my past has been so freeing. I am learning what it’s like to live by grace and no longer by guilt, which is incredible.
I currently have joint custody of my son, who is now 11-years-old, but his mother is refusing to allow him to see me while I am here. It’s been four months, which is the longest I’ve gone without seeing him since he was born, and it’s been really tough. Many times I have wanted to file paperwork through the courts against her for violating my right to see him, but have been advised to give it to God and allow Him to work things out. I have never trusted God for anything in my life before, especially about something that is so important to me. However, through this situation, I have realized that my relationship with my son has been an idol in my life and, no matter what the outcome is, I will be OK because I have my Father in heaven and He is enough. It’s amazing how much peace I have found through trusting God and no longer trying to figure out or control situations on my own. I could never figure out why I was always so anxious or depressed. Now I realize it was because I relied on myself for everything in life and without God, I can do nothing.
Now I look to God to be in control of my life and for strength and guidance. I’m so grateful to day that He has kept me here on this earth for a reason. I can’t wait to see how God is going to use me to glorify Him and build His kingdom.
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