A Life in Progress
A Testimony from the Colony of Mercy
Meet Ben H.
I am 22 years old and before I came here my life was in pieces. I don’t want to glorify what I was doing or how I was, so I am going to just keep it simple. I was using drugs and alcohol. Let’s just say that it ruined not only my life but the lives of those who loved me the most. I was raised in a Christian home; I had a loving family who provided, on the surface, everything one could need. The problem was much deeper than that, however, deeper than my soul. The problem was my spirit was not connected daily to the Holy Spirit of God, which made me feel as though I was completely and totally alone. I was going to church and church groups and was very connected with that sort of thing. I even went to a Christian school. I thought I had all the “spiritual answers.” I could speak fluent “Christianese.”
But that was the problem. It was me doing all these things in my own strength and not letting God work through me. I had an intellectual knowledge of God and His work, but I had no idea who He was or what He could do through me. It had to stop being all about me and become all about Him, not just a little bit or not even a lot – I had to surrender all to Him. God had my best interests at heart all along. Sometimes I just didn’t like the growing pains that go along with the Christian life when trials come, but now I am seeing through Him revealing His grace and love to me that I can just truly let go. It can be His show to run and nothing is going to go catastrophically wrong if I let Him take over. This is the only battle we win by surrendering – surrendering to Christ and letting Him live victoriously through us. If God brings us to it He will also bring us through it, and I firmly believe that now.
The reason we aren’t comfortable here on earth, I believe, is because we are not home yet and will not be until we are physically with Him. However, that doesn’t mean that we have to live a life dominated by sin while here on earth. We have the power through the Spirit of God to do anything if we just yield our life fully to Him and allow Him to do what He sees as best. He sees the whole picture where we do not. Without God and Keswick, which God used in a big way in my life, I would still be out there living a defeated life, dominated by sin. But now, through the Lord Jesus Christ and His victory over sin and death on the cross, He made it possible for my spirit to live once again. He can now live a life of victory through me and use me wherever He sees fit to better help His kingdom. The best part about it is in Christ, I get to go along for the ride. I can’t wait to see what He is going to do next. I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. Galatians 2:20
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